Daily Rantics

Sometimes I have weird days where I will be intently focusing on something (lastest thing was cleaning) and I'll start singing old church hymns.

At school, I sit with a group of three girls, plus a few others. One of which I have known since I was a teenager, whom I met in the Salvation Army church, another, a 40 something (relates like a 25 year old though) reformed Christian and another very spiritual 30 something (who honest to God I thought was younger than I am) who at first totally bothered the life out of me, because shes so "can do", "conflict resolution" blah blah mumble jumbo.

She knows I'm a big LGBT advocate, focusing my thesis and statements on LGBT teens and young adults. I also feature addiction in there too, but, I'm narrowing on the LGBT community.

She knows I revolt religion, so much so to the point where I demanded no pastor at our wedding. She hasn't pressured much, although she mentions to me that to hear me speak of the loss of religion and the mainstream disassociation effect just oozed sadness.  I suppose she is right. I am sad. Mainstream religion often makes me sad. But thats what religion has done for, well, ever.  Look at history. Look at all the proof, the Spanish Inquisition, the MIDDLE EAST, please, I need no more mockery.

She sent me this podcast on CBC radio Q, featuring this pretty cool dude named Jay Bakker. His parents are some sort of nortorious church misogenists that I know nothing of, but low and behold, as I listened to him speak, every word, every sentence could have been written from the walls of my own mind and heart.

I rebuke mainstream religion. I rebuke extremists, and people who judge you even though they don't have the right nor the BALLS to saw a word. I have come to hate religion and everything it stands for.

My mother taught me not to hate, yet I've failed drastically in that department.

Anyway. I wanted to share this little tidbit of information with the world, as this dude Jay is killer awesome. http://www.cbc.ca/q/blog/2011/03/10/jay-bakker-on-q/

Dude could be my doppleganger, you know, except he's older, a dude, tattoo'd everywhere, and well, he has a beard. Whatever, great minds think alike.

I suppose what I'm trying to say is that I need to understand why I still blame someone else for the bad things that happen in my life, but I still claim I don't believe in a God. I can't do both. But I can't follow mainstream religion when they won't accept the best of people let alone those who need love and guidance the most.

I hate these deep rooted discussions with myself sometimes.

For those who know me, you know how much I loathe this television show. At least the Gosslin kids are cute. This family is down right....evil. With their little matching suits, homemade dresses and long hair. I have nothing against religion, or extreme Baptist, or whatever their religion is, but what I have things against is the fact they have a CHURCH in their house. FOR GOD SAKES. That’s wrong. Or the fact that the mother has popped out EIGHTEEN CHILDREN (Nineteen as of March 2010).
Can you imagine marrying someone you've never kissed? Never hugged? Holy crap, its one step away from arranged marriages!

Another thing I find odd about this, is that the fact that these children do not have friends outside of their siblings. I mean, siblings are cool and all, but honestly, you need to have someone else to share your fears and dreams with... But then again, when would they meet any new friends as they never go out, or participate in real world events like sports, socials, movies, etc. Sure they don't even go to a public church where they could meet other likeminded children.

Don't ask me how the oldest guy found his girlfriend, but we know it wasn't from the internet, as they are restricted from it, or TV, as that’s the Devils spoon of course, no outside sports, or events etc...So how did he actually meet this girl? Ten bucks on arranged marriage is all I have to say.

I admire the fact that they are self sufficient and debt free, but honestly, just because you don't owe anyone money doesn't mean God's going to give you free range to pop out multiple children whenever you want. The poor woman needs a break! She's spent more time pregnant in the last 22 years than 5 woman experience in 20 years! Think of her uterus! OH GOD.

Also, Michelle is 43 years old, and around this time in life, older women that have children start to give un-needed health adversities to their unborn child. She has 18 children and a grand baby, can't she do with that? Or what about adopting a clan like Angelina? At least she’s helping lonely children out there.

Put a cork in the faucet grand-daddy! Ugh.