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    Tuesdays always a bitch

    Tuesday, November 15, 2011

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    I’m feeling anxious and out of place lately. Some days I am good, some I am not so good. Today would be one of those days where I feel like at any point during the day a meteor might come down and kill me dead. Of course I know that isn’t going to happen, but tell that to the anxiety wrenching in my stomach like some sort of parasite.
     
    I have the dentist today at 4:40pm and I am sure that has something to do with the anxious attitude.  I hate the dentist, as I have stated many times before. This isn’t a new thing for me.

    The one good thing going on today is the Drakes new album dropped. I don’t know what it is about music, but it really does something for the soul. Doesn’t matter what it is... it just makes me feel better. I think I was anxious for the album too.  I am a little bit obsessed maybe.

    As I said before, Tuesdays are not good days for me. I don’t know if its because its a heavy day for me at school, or the first day of the school week essentially for me ... I just have bad Tuesdays.

    I also don’t particularly enjoy my group methods class. I was also paired in that class with someone who couldn’t even find herself to come to school for two weeks, and she is so incredibly annoying. Like we’re doing an assignment in class and she is bouncing from one person to the next asking for answers. It’s like lady, your twice my age, you should have this shit down pat. Actually. Shes my mom's age, and has a kid my age. Mind-blowing.

     I don’t want to carry anyone else’s weight but my own. And if you're a friend and you ask me a question, I’ll commit to that. But this woman drives me. Fuck.

    Anxious to angry, angry to anxious, uncomfortable in my skin, impulsive... I am so scared this is the first days of many that’ll bring me back to the worst again. I just have this feeling of dread. Like its looming, and it’s been two years, and there’s nothing I can do. It’s coming. I can’t get away from it. 2 years break isn’t enough. The more instances I have higher chance I’ll have in living this illness my ENTIRE life at this level of intensity.

    I don’t know if I can do that.

    It’s just one shortfall after another. 

    Its been a while

    Thursday, August 11, 2011

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    It's been more than a while, again.

    I think its good when I don't have to write something in my blog. Usually I gravitate towards writing when I am lost or listless or not feeling suscinct.
    Well, I am neither of those things today, thankfully, as I have had a wonderful time sleeping today and going over university websites  giving me the opportunity to attend part time Summer 2012. It is quite the experience, or feeling I should say.

    I think I have decided on Ryerson, although the thought of going to UoGuelph is hauntingly attractive, especially since they might/ seem to have direct linkage to social service worker programs allowing better access and achieved credits. Adam and I kind of had a mutual agreement that it was time to pull our hearts out of Guelph and focus on where we are now, even if it is in the GTA.  I love my house, and I love my neighborhood...and I love that I have the option for many other types of social services on either side of me (Hamilton, Toronto) but I just miss Guelph.  We finally made the decision to change our family doctor and dentist to a local one, because it was getting increasingly difficult for me to find time to get to Guelph what with my school and work schedule. Come September it will be even more horrendous so we made the unit decision that it was time to move on and get a doctor and dentist here. I have already contacted a doctor here, and booked an appointment for the end of the month, and I have just cut ties with the best dentist in the entire world in Guelph, so I can find one here. I don't think I'll ever find one like Dr. Khimani. That dude is seriously the nicest guy in dentistry on the planet.

    Anyway, I suppose being an adult means making decisions that sometimes you aren't happy with.  I can deal with that.

    Keep it 'rill yo,

    K


    I finally feel like I am in the right place AT THE RIGHT TIME! It's like the world makes better sense, all because I finally know what I'm good at.

    Coffee is all the religion I need

    Wednesday, November 4, 2009

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    Coffee.


    I know a select few of you out there will think I'm nuts, but I've never been a coffee kind of person. No, I don't have an uncle Tim (Horton) who supplies me with sweets and hips, or an obsession with Starbucks or Williams.

    However, I like my teas, and enjoy them as such. Yesterday I went through the Tim’s drive through, and actually ordered a BLACK TEA. without sugar or milk. Since I'm not aloud to have milk anymore, I decided I would switch to a soy milk, so I could still live with my tea habit, and not fully lose my sanity.

    So anyway, I did that and half way back I noticed that I did not get a tea, I got a coffee! So... I was like "whatever" cause I was cold, and just wanted a hot beverage, so I drank it and Jesus, did I ever see the light. I had SO MUCH ENERGY it was like someone had plugged me into a socket and I was now receiving some sort of boost of energy! (Yes I know there’s a burn out too, but it was well worth it). I got SOOO much work done it was INSANE, and then?! I had the balls to call a new dentist, book an appointment, and then FOLLOW THROUGH with the appointment, all in one day! I was like super multi-tasking Kala the machine!

    I like it.

    Coffee may taste like a camels ass, but so does Buckleys, and it works. Lol

    So, I'm now downing a large Tim’s Coffee and waiting for the happiness to kick in. I'm so going to harass today's to-do list like a crack raving lunatic! I LOVE IT!

    Thanks Coffee and Mexicans. I love you all.

    FML

    Thursday, October 29, 2009

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    So I didn't sleep a wink last night.
    It was borderline TERRIFYING.
    I had a stupid toothache and it totally wrecked my sleeping. :( I swear I must have slept maybe 4 hours the whole night, and not consecutively, I might add.
    So I booked a emergency dentist appointment for today at 2:30pm becuase I figured I had some kind of cavity or tooth issue, that would require him pumping me full of drugs and heading me out the door to come back the next week to fix completly... hah. was I wrong.
    Before I go any further, I think I need to advise you that I have a few fears in life, numero uno being the DENTIST. I love my dentist, he rocks, but his profession scares me shitless to the point of dry heaving in his office. Yeah.

    So back to my story, I get to the dentist, tell him the jist, and then he goes "oh hey, look, your wisdom tooth back there has a cavity! that one is going to have to come out you know" and I was like "yeah I know, I was going to ask you when we should book to do that, cause I've been ignoring it..." then he goes "no need to book! we're here now, it will only take five minutes of your time!"
    QUEUE THE WATERWORKS. Kala starts to sob uncontrollably, because she’s an idiot frightened of the dentist.

    So, I got over that slightly, and after 5-7 shots of that freezing nastiness in my mouth, the tooth came out. I won't lie, I was shaking so much the dentist had to move his pointy poker dentisty tool off of my chest, as it was going dangerously towards the floor, lol.

    So, It's been okay so far, I got to eat soup tonight, and it wasn't too bad. It doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would. I'm surprised, I think I might actually get to book the other one to get out before it actually gives me problems like this one did...

    Maybe I will get the guts to do that next week...maybe...