Daily Rantics

Another shitty, sick weekend, is here and half way over. I am in no means a half-glass empty person, but I just can't seem to be positive when I might cough up a lung at any second not to mention, a couple teeth.

Adam worked all day today and has to work half the day tomorrow as well. SO... here I am, I guess I'll chill by myself and do some studying right.... wrong. Lucy won't give me the time to get to sitting down and concentrating since shes going nuts.  I have been sick for the past two weeks and haven't been that socially available to her, so now I think shes going nuts and its boiling down to that shes not stimulated enough.

Kinda hoped Adam would have been home to entertain her for a bit while I got caught up on my psychology stuff, but alas, he had to work, so crazyface and I bickered and bit all day. Meh. Then he comes home, and I ask him to entertain her, so he sits on the floor and plays video games. As if sitting on the floor is going to cure her of her need for stimuation, and lots of it. I even tried playing with her today but that didn't work either...so yeah.

Everyone is a little emotionally unavailable now.

I wish my body was unavailable right now, that would be nice. After yesterday with the vomitting and the migraine, stupid blood clots in my wisdom teeth moving and bleeding, fever and the infection with the nausea and diahrea, I am physically spent. I spent the entire day in bed, and didn't go down stairs, partially because I knew I couldn't make it back up the stairs after I made it down here...and my only bathroom is on the second floor...soooo you don't put a diahrea infection girl on the floor without a bathroom with tons of stairs in between said bathroom... Its just common sense.  I probably should have had Adam bring some snacks up for me for the day, because I think I was kind of hungry but all I had in my nightstand was rasins. lol Yah I dont know why I had raisins in there...but I ate those and drank water from the bathroom all day. It was ..gross.

THAN. Adam works late, comes home around 9! yay me! I got to eat soup at 9. first real thing to eat since 7 the following day.  Hes been working late since Thursday, of course. My luck right?

The wisdom teeth thing has been a breeze. Nothing out of the ordinary, as I expected. I have had teeth pulled before, just never been under. I got over it, so its ok. But this cold, its holding me back. I had a fever with it, so I'm a little worried its more than a cold. There's a lot of fluid in my lungs and ears, so I started taking sudafed again, and if its not cleared by monday, I'll have to go to emerge, as any longer and it'll turn into pnumonia again, and I dont want that again. Especially since my immune system is bad right now.  I haven't had this bad a fluid build up since last Augusts pnumonia scare.  YEAH. pnumonia in august. lol only me.

Anyway, off I go, going to do some more reading for school. not much else to do right now!

I haven't been feeling exceptionally well lately, and haven't had the heart to write much less post anything on the blog.  Things really haven't been normal since Christmas, and that kind of sucks.  Its like one bad blow to the next and its quite hard to become accumstom to....because for certain the things that are going on now aren't just going to disapear.  Work sucks and most likely in itself it is the main reason I've been so dragged out.  My weeks go by fast, but that means my weekends do too, and then I turn around and I'm back in that hellhole again. It really isn't healthy I trust.

I've been growing my nails for about a week or so now, as many of you know, I have the obsessive need to bite my nails every four seconds, thus resulting in my fingers looking like little ugly stumpies.  I have never had any nail at all on my fingers, and for the first time, I see a little white line of nail on my fingers. It's super! lol. 

Its just something I'm doing to focus on as a good thing I'm doing, amongst all this bad messed up shit at work and whatnot.  You may think I'm a failure at my job, but I can grow my nails bitch! WOOYA!



Oy Vey.