Daily Rantics

I've been practicing anti-socialism as of late. Its been nice to run off and detach myself from the people I usually spend most of my time with at school during breaks. I remember last year I really hated being alone at all, but now I hate not being alone....lol.

I have also gotten into the habit of wearing my ear buds ALL the time....they aren't even plugged into my ipod....actually I don't even carry my ipod....just my ear buds.... LOL that's how antisocial I am. I just poke the plug in end into my pocket and pretend I'm listening to music! I mean mostly I do it because the college is very loud in the common areas, and the ear buds are sound reducing, so it helps me focus and ward off migraines, but yeah...totes using them for anti-socialism agendas as well.

I wonder, does that make me bad person? lol.

I mean, at least it means I'm smart...because people totally leave me alone when I put the buds in my ears.

Whatever, I just really enjoy my own company these days. Surprising as I've always hated being alone in the past, and actually went out of my way to be with people who wouldn't of even made the same effort for me.

The only thing I am craving right now, is some Nicole time. I am coming across so many things I want to talk to her about with my work at The Well, and I just have the need to relate. I think I know superficially what it feels like to be an "assumed lesbian", and she needs some recognition in my opinion.

I also miss her familiarity. Unno, I get the same safe-net feeling from her that I get from Adam...which isn't too surprising, they are kind of the same person in a lot of ways, just different sexes, lol.  But aside from that, I want to be secluded and left alone.

I also have been avoiding my mother, or perhaps not fighting hard enough to find time to speak with her. I know she is very worried, but I dunno... I am running on empty and need this week to go away so that everything can go back to normal.

I also came home today from work at 2:30pm and slept from about 3pm to 7pm. It was awesome. The only problem now is that I really should be getting sleepy by now and finding my way to bed, to sleep. Instead I am on my computer, writing this, and again, as usual, feinding off sleep.  I read on my nook tablet for a while, but the screen was bugging my eyes, and I had nothing I wanted to read that didn't cost me an arm and a leg (56 bucks for a social workers guide to working with LGBTQ is totally not in the budget right now) so yeah.

I have to go be productive or sleep or something... chow.

Adam gets in today! I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE A FAMILIAR FACE!


Holy crap. I feel like I haven’t seen him in months, although we chit chat every once in a while on the net, I prefer face to face contact. I wonder how the cats are?



He will be here later today, his flight gets in around 2, and then he has to drive 2 hours or so here to the park from Deer Lake. At least it’s a nice day and he’ll be driving a rental so the drive shouldn’t be too tedious!

I just hope mom doesn’t go nutso about where we are all sleeping. I know she goes on and on about how its “her house” and “her roof” and in “her house” under “her roof” we do what she says no matter how we live in “sin” at home in Ontario. Whatever mother dearest. We’ve been together almost eight years and have lived together for almost 5. What do you expect? We sleep in different bedrooms and don’t pee in front of each other? Phhft. Lol. Sometimes I wish we did, Adam is hard to sleep with. He flings his arms and legs around and hogs all the blankets and bed. If our bed didn’t have wood planks on either side of it I would sleep on the floor, LOL. Whatever, I love him and his weird sleeping habits, we’ll get a king size bed one of these days, and it won’t be an issue anymore, haha.


Enough said. Lol.

PS: Shout out to my Girl Robin (Aug 13), Zach and Kat (Aug 15) Happy Birthday bitchuz!

So Nicole gets in today.

I'm sure you're all wondering how am I writing these blogs if I don't have access to the internet or cell phone? well my friends, I'm a little weird, and bored, so whilst on my trip I took notes and stuff and wrote little exerpts to go on my blog when I got back to the land of the living! Ah smart cookie!

My tattoo is healing ok, its itchy and very scabby, I suppose I will have to put cream on it soon so it heals better. I read online that you should keep it moist as if the scabs rip off it could take some of the ink with it too.  I don't want that. This thing is with me for the rest of my life it better heal nicely or I might have to kick my butt.

Anyway, so Kris and I are going to drive to Moose Pond (aka Deer lake) to get Nicole so she can start her vacation here at home. I was a lot more interested and excited previously before I got down here. It makes me think if I started doubling up my medication or something because I have been awfully dulled lately.

Whatever the case, I am excited for Kris to see Nicole as they haven't seen eachother in over six years. I suppose Nicole is a little apprehensive about the reception she may receive once she gets back.  I suppose I don't blame her, people here are much less accepting and will most likely be rude about her being gay or to some extent. I don't think it'll be a good idea for them to do it. I don't take kindly to assholes.

Anyway Im gonna go because we have to go get Nicole, Kris is ready to go, and I want something to eat!

Caio!

So our stag adn doe went pretty well. I got smashed, and received a pie in the face, sounds like any other friday night...LOL

Loved the crap out of the fact that Nicole stayed from Friday to Monday morning. Its the longest time I've spent with her in like.... 3 years? or actually? maybe the longest time evaar?

Whatever the case is, I can't get enough of the lesbian humour. oy vey.

So after work at 3pm today I'm driving out to the good ol' Whitby to pick up my girlfriend on the side Kat, and my partner in crime Nicole. Also known as the loves of my life, along with Robin of course. Lol.
It's been too long since those two gals have come out to visit, and I am SUPER SUPER pumped to have them out this weekend! I foresee a very lazy weekend however, throw in some good movies, a lot of video game playing (I think Adam loves my video game crazy friends, lol), and just a good relaxing time.
I have my MRI tomorrow morning, hopefully I won't have any issues with my foot that are crazy. It isn't getting better. I need to work work work on being able to walk properly for any amount of time. Surprising what a silly sprain (which just so happens to be a result of a Nicole visit, lol! loves it) back in September, that has now taken over my life. Eff that.
I had a bagel with cream cheese for two mornings in a row now, and I am totally bad ass, but I can't help it. I hate having restrictions in my life, when I know very well that my damn migraines aren't connected to my eating habits. If I'm stressed, my head hurts, if I'm involved in strenuous activity, my head hurts. After being brutally beaten during a session with Frank my massage therapist-- I HURT. Head to ties ladies and gents.
But nothing to do with my eating habits...and even if it turns out that some how they are connected, there’s no way in fucking hell I'm giving up dairy for past January. NO WAY.
Eff you migraines.
On another wonderful front, I am starting to feel a little better since last weeks... psychotic episode. I think having the warning that I could lose everything if I don't pull up my socks may have made me physically ill, as well as hurt like a mofo for a few days, but its true. I can't ever slack. I'm slacking right now whilst writing this, but this is my break, lol. Otherwise, no slacky.
I need to haul ass, 24/7. There is no room for mistakes, and that’s just the name of my profession. You fuck up, your ass is in the can.

Anyway, s'all you need to know right now.