Daily Rantics

I've pretty much been completely on my own for two years now, before, I lived with Adam, but my parents and family were just a walk away. Now, I live with Adam, and my family are all in Newfoundland.  I admit some days are harder than others. I may fight with my parents, but I love having my family around.  It keeps me grounded and responsible.

Adam's family has been a continuous comfort for me in the last year, particularly helping me through awkward emotional holiday seasons, along with strife and hardship that have come and gone.  I've also found solace in the fact that I am so much more comfortable with them than I was before, and find that every passing day it becomes more and more evident that they are my family too.

In the last year especially, I've found myself gravitating towards treating friends in a more family-esq. manner as well, as they have become most definitely my family away from family.

Sure, I fight with them, bicker and poke fun, but we love each other, and the one thing in the world that never changes is that we're always there for each other.  I witnessed that today at my bridal shower. Sometimes I think Nicole must be insane or on some other mental brain wave than I am, but when it comes down to it, shes on my team.  Shes sick as a dog, even though she won't admit it, WELL, mostly because she CAN'T TALK.... but she showed up today.

Kat is pretty new on my radar, truth of the matter is some days I want to kick her. But also on those days, I want to kick myself.  She's a lot like my in some ways, very dominant that's for sure, and I can relate to her with that.  She has been sick in the last little while too, worked from 8pm to 4am yesterday and still found her way out last night so she could go to the bridal shower today.  Not to mention she cancelled her work for last night so she'd be able to go.  I appreciate that.  She showed up today.

That's a lot more than I can say about some other people who are friends, friends that don't even reply to my text as to whether or not they are coming at all.  I don't care if you can't, but at least tell me, especially if I'm expecting you because you said you were coming.  That sucks.

I think after the wedding I'm going to go my separate ways with some....things in my life. Some people, some worries.  It'll be my treat to myself, although its really what I deserve.

So if you asked me today, how I am feeling, I would say positively amazed at the wonderful people in my life, but I'd also say homesick, because I miss my family so much.