Someone is listening
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Sometimes I have weird days where I will be intently focusing on something (lastest thing was cleaning) and I'll start singing old church hymns.
At school, I sit with a group of three girls, plus a few others. One of which I have known since I was a teenager, whom I met in the Salvation Army church, another, a 40 something (relates like a 25 year old though) reformed Christian and another very spiritual 30 something (who honest to God I thought was younger than I am) who at first totally bothered the life out of me, because shes so "can do", "conflict resolution" blah blah mumble jumbo.
She knows I'm a big LGBT advocate, focusing my thesis and statements on LGBT teens and young adults. I also feature addiction in there too, but, I'm narrowing on the LGBT community.
She knows I revolt religion, so much so to the point where I demanded no pastor at our wedding. She hasn't pressured much, although she mentions to me that to hear me speak of the loss of religion and the mainstream disassociation effect just oozed sadness. I suppose she is right. I am sad. Mainstream religion often makes me sad. But thats what religion has done for, well, ever. Look at history. Look at all the proof, the Spanish Inquisition, the MIDDLE EAST, please, I need no more mockery.
She sent me this podcast on CBC radio Q, featuring this pretty cool dude named Jay Bakker. His parents are some sort of nortorious church misogenists that I know nothing of, but low and behold, as I listened to him speak, every word, every sentence could have been written from the walls of my own mind and heart.
I rebuke mainstream religion. I rebuke extremists, and people who judge you even though they don't have the right nor the BALLS to saw a word. I have come to hate religion and everything it stands for.
My mother taught me not to hate, yet I've failed drastically in that department.
Anyway. I wanted to share this little tidbit of information with the world, as this dude Jay is killer awesome. http://www.cbc.ca/q/blog/2011/03/10/jay-bakker-on-q/
Dude could be my doppleganger, you know, except he's older, a dude, tattoo'd everywhere, and well, he has a beard. Whatever, great minds think alike.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is that I need to understand why I still blame someone else for the bad things that happen in my life, but I still claim I don't believe in a God. I can't do both. But I can't follow mainstream religion when they won't accept the best of people let alone those who need love and guidance the most.
I hate these deep rooted discussions with myself sometimes.
At school, I sit with a group of three girls, plus a few others. One of which I have known since I was a teenager, whom I met in the Salvation Army church, another, a 40 something (relates like a 25 year old though) reformed Christian and another very spiritual 30 something (who honest to God I thought was younger than I am) who at first totally bothered the life out of me, because shes so "can do", "conflict resolution" blah blah mumble jumbo.
She knows I'm a big LGBT advocate, focusing my thesis and statements on LGBT teens and young adults. I also feature addiction in there too, but, I'm narrowing on the LGBT community.
She knows I revolt religion, so much so to the point where I demanded no pastor at our wedding. She hasn't pressured much, although she mentions to me that to hear me speak of the loss of religion and the mainstream disassociation effect just oozed sadness. I suppose she is right. I am sad. Mainstream religion often makes me sad. But thats what religion has done for, well, ever. Look at history. Look at all the proof, the Spanish Inquisition, the MIDDLE EAST, please, I need no more mockery.
She sent me this podcast on CBC radio Q, featuring this pretty cool dude named Jay Bakker. His parents are some sort of nortorious church misogenists that I know nothing of, but low and behold, as I listened to him speak, every word, every sentence could have been written from the walls of my own mind and heart.
I rebuke mainstream religion. I rebuke extremists, and people who judge you even though they don't have the right nor the BALLS to saw a word. I have come to hate religion and everything it stands for.
My mother taught me not to hate, yet I've failed drastically in that department.
Anyway. I wanted to share this little tidbit of information with the world, as this dude Jay is killer awesome. http://www.cbc.ca/q/blog/2011/03/10/jay-bakker-on-q/
Dude could be my doppleganger, you know, except he's older, a dude, tattoo'd everywhere, and well, he has a beard. Whatever, great minds think alike.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is that I need to understand why I still blame someone else for the bad things that happen in my life, but I still claim I don't believe in a God. I can't do both. But I can't follow mainstream religion when they won't accept the best of people let alone those who need love and guidance the most.
I hate these deep rooted discussions with myself sometimes.
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