Daily Rantics

Not everyone understands their influence on the people around them.

For instance, when I'm having a migraine and the pain is bad, Adam gets upset with himself because there isn't anything he can do stop it. Here I am so wrapped up in my pain and sick that I didn't even realize my pain was hurting him.

Of course I didn't ask him to take the role of Mr. Fixit, but because he loves me he feels the need to do so and protect me.

You never intentionally want to hurt your loved ones, but it sometimes happens.

Sometimes your having a bad day and all you need is a shoulder to cry on, and that's ok. Its human. But sometimes that shoulder needs something from you.

Its hard to be in a relationship where the road goes only one way, or isn't paved.

I need to help myself right now. I can't have negativity, because I am very close to breaking again, and I need to reel myself in.

I am stressed, but in a good amount, as I can handle school just fine... But now I find my personal life leaking into my school/professional life, and its hurting me.

I have to step back, I have to. I can't feel that way ever again. You know what I was like, as I involved you in it.

Please understand I have to smile because I have a reason to, not to hide a frown.

Let me fix me, and when I'm strong enough to be what you need, and what's healthy for me, if your willing, we can talk.

Once you learn to love, you learn to hurt. Sometimes more than humanly possible.

I'm sorry.

K.


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